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“Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, like locked rooms and like books that are now written in a very foreign tongue. Do not now seek the answers, which cannot be given you because you would not be able to live them. And the point is, to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will then gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.”
-Rainer Maria Rilke
Living the questions now is no easy task but these words by Rilke have resonated with me so strongly since I first read them over 7 years ago. And today I’m still working every day to embrace uncertainty and love the creative process itself.
I think in many ways being an artist is about un-doing things. And it’s hard work. The work is so much about un-doing the self-doubt that seeps into every corner and crack of my existence, seeking out all the false assumptions I make, hunting down all the ways our culture props up resistance and glorifies sameness. I have to work to strip down the belief that I should stay the same, stay consistent. There are infinite ways that we get in our own way, ways that we hold ourselves back from the joy of creativity without judgement, of just doing, moving, creating without expectation. I used to think about art as something I was making, building. But now I see it more as something I’m stripping away. If I do the hard work of un-doing the doubt and criticism and resistance and judgment that we all carry around with us every day, then I can just play with paint on canvas or ink on paper and truly love the process itself, live into the questions without fear.
I care a lot about process, about experimentation, about saying yes before I know what I’m fully getting myself into. And I think that’s why my work is fairly diverse in medium and style. I’ve been drawing since I was a kid, seriously painting with acrylics since 2009, painting with oils since 2011 and recently I’ve been working on a major project using black ink on canvas. I have done some sculpture work and some wood carving but mostly enjoy 2 dimensional visual art. In my work I try to capture emotion in unexpected ways. I’m interested in form and communication, color and feeling.
I live and work in San Francisco, California.
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